Legion World Forums LEGION OUTPOST Mission Monitor Board The Moaning, Groaning, I just want to Vent thread

I'm very sorry, Sarky.

You guys don't have to apologize. You didn't do anything wrong.

We're not apologising. We're sorry for what you are going through. It sounds really rough.

You said that it was just you and him in the house in more recent times. I hope there are others you can be with who miss him too. That can help.

As for feeling selfish, don't worry about it. This is a rough time for you and you need to look after yourself. Some time in the future you can be the one who helps others in their rough time.
For now just look after yourself. Be with others who care when you can and share with each other the good times you remember from being with him.

I hate that hospital, because they're the ones who let him walk around when he shouldn't have been and that was why he fell and fractured his face.

I hate Trump and the federal government because they allowed the COVID pandemic to get to this point and if they had contained it back in February my Grandpa wouldn't have gotten it which made things worse.

And I hate myself because if I had just taken him to the emergency room as soon as he said he fell the first time back in November the entire timeline would've been changed and it's likely he wouldn't have been allowed up again.

I?m a selfish, manipulative piece of shit and all I cared about getting from that man was money and holding onto a house I think is garbage

I was a rotten grandson and now all I care about is another excuse to waste my money

I don?t deserve the right to mourn him

Sarcky, you said how you enjoyed just sitting in the same room with him, not talking just being there. Might he have not felt exactly the same about you being there? Older people get very lonely because most of their friends have moved away or already died. Just having you around is very likely to have been a great comfort to him.

As for selfishly using his money, before you were talking about your memories of the things he did for you and bought for you. It is extremely possible that he gained a lot from being able to do that for you. Don't spoil his memory by blaming yourself for things he did for you and quite possibly was pleased he could.

My wife's dad also had a fall after which his health went down and eventually contributed to his death. It was sad and we wondered if there was more we could have done, but my wife has a background in nursing and she says that old people often fall and as much as we want to protect them we can't put them in a cage and fence them in and they wouldn't want us to.

Sorry to hear this, Kid. Losing family you actually care about sucks. And it sucks sometimes that life goes on. And it's also fantastic that life goes on. I still miss my grandmother and dad to this day. But you have to look at the good things in life as well and realize that if they truly cared about you, they wouldn't want you to get lost in that sadness. They would only want the best for you.

...damn it, I can't do this.

I can't wallow in self misery right now. I can be upset, but I can't do this to the rest of my family especially my mother. I lost a grandpa, she lost a dad.

Good thought, but just remember that emotions do crazy things when going through grief. It's not a pleasant ride. It never goes completely away but the highs and lows of it do tend to mellow a bit over time. Hang in there and don't be too hard on yourself.

Sorry the holiday commission isn't ready yet

I don't even have any problems today. I just stopped by to sign off on this.

My birthday sucked.

Another run cancelled this week. This will mean two low paychecks in a row. Chrimas and New Year. Dammit.

Sorry, Rick

That's just rubbish Rick. Sorry to hear that.

Christ. Sorry.

It happens this time of year. Business slows down and the runs dry up. Sucks as I was needing this run, but that's the way it works for truckers. And sorry to hear about your birthday, Sarky. Guess I missed wishing you a happy one. Sorry it wasn't.

So... my mom has cancer.

I'm very sorry, Sarky. Have the doctors said anything yet about the treatment possibilities?

The test results are back tomorrow so we have no idea how severe it is or if it spread too far.

She's been in the hospital since last Tuesday and for the last couple of days she's been doped up on pain killers. My brother called her earlier but she just wasn't coherent.

My thoughts are with all of you, Sarky.

Ugh. That's terrible. Here's hoping the tests bring good news

Oh man. That's horrible news. Life really seems to have been dumping on you a few times over the last couple of years. I am so sorry. Thinking of you (and praying, for both you and your mom).

I'm really sorry, man. We'll definitely be sending positive vibes in your mom's direction.

...UGH I CAN'T TAKE THIS!

I don't know what to do! I can't stop thinking about her! I just wanted to relax and try not to think about it by doing shopping for commissions but I'm just...! I can't think of who to contact. I can't think of what to pick. The people I want to commission aren't taking commissions and I'm here by myself and... FUCK!