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You guys (and gals! sorry!) have been great. Thank you.
Thanks for the hug, FK! I'll take 'em from anyone right now.
Teeds, one of the reasons I posted my troubles was so I wouldn't just disappear. I wanted everyone to know that I am ok. Well, physically, anyway.
The separation with my wife has been fairly amicable, so it isn't as bad as it could be. Not even close.
I have an odd request, and I hope this isn't out-of-bounds. (Mods, feel free to nuke this post if it is.)
My request is - can I call you? I have typically been a very solitary person. In fact, that is one of the reasons for my separation. I do have some friends that I have been leaning on heavily, but I don't have many. Are there any people out there who wouldn't mind if I called them just to chat a bit. We could talk about comics or baseball or girly stuff if you are female or anything really. Or I might just bawl. I have been separated from the wife for a week, and sometimes the loneliness is unbearable. If this is something you will allow, then send me a PM of your number, what name I should call you, and what are the optimum times to call. It is probably a good idea if you are 18+, by the way.
I don't want to trouble anyone, but I realized what a great support network this could be. Well, ok, Cobie put it in his post, and it got me thinking.
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Sorry to hear about this lance. We'll be here waiting for your return when you feel up to it.
From: Fort McMurray | Registered: Nov 2004
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First of all, a big sloppy thank you to everyone for being so supportive. I didn’t mean for my earlier posts to sound so alarmist – I think I will still be on here occasionally, but not near as much as I used to be. I actually thought I was going to have to move in with my dad, who has no internet access. So far, that is not the case. I can only get on the internet when I go to the library, and then I am usually hunting for a job or an apartment.
Another thanks to those who said I could call them. I would likely only call when I am feeling terribly lonely, and I didn’t call anyone yet because – yesterday was the best day I have had since the separation.
It went like this: I went to church yesterday morning, and the church was having its Thanksgiving dinner. More food than I could handle! It is probably the only Thanksgiving meal I will get this year, so I was pretty happy about it.
I had planned to go and see the kids later in the day, but I called my wife around 3pm and asked if I could come over earlier. She said it was fine and even asked if I wanted to do laundry while I was there! (Which I did!) My youngest son (Patrick) was visiting his grandparents, but PJ (10) and Mariah (7) were there, and they paid so much attention to me! They showed me their Christmas lists and played games with me and we talked about dinosaurs and fought with me and it was all wonderful!
Before I left, I was printing off a portion of a short story I was writing, and my daughter asked if she could read it. I told her there wasn’t much of it yet and that I would let her read it when it was finished. This gave me the idea – I am going to write the story for my daughter and give it to her for Christmas. She will get the other, more normal, types of presents as well, of course, but I thought she might like this.
Thanks again to everyone for listening, and for your support.
From: Cincinnati | Registered: Jul 2003
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Some days are ok. Some days are rotten. And some days, I just can’t stand it. Yesterday was one of those days. I was feeling so bad yesterday I actually did call a Legion Worlder. Exnihil was kind enough to let me call him. He was kind enough to spend 20 minutes or so out of his day (ok, it was on his drive home) just to talk to me. He was sympathetic, non-judgmental, and a good listener.
And it helped. A big thank you to Ex for letting me bend your ear. There’ll be a little something extra for you in your next paycheck, fella.
I also called my wife last night. I didn’t really have anything to say, but we chatted. There were no angry words, no acrimony, we just….talked. And it felt good.
Maybe reconciliation isn’t out of the question after all, I don’t know. The one thing I have learned is I cannot get through this with my sanity intact (such as it is) if I don’t lean on some people.
Thanks again to Exnihil, and to everyone who has been so supportive.
From: Cincinnati | Registered: Jul 2003
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I am getting better. I am looking at this as a phase of our relationship, rather than the end.
I had my first day of therapy yesterday for my anxiety issues. It went well, and already seems to have helped.
Now I need to find a job. I was a stay-at-home dad, so I went out and got a job at Target. It is minimum wage and likely seasonal, but it should keep me from starving. So, I am incessantly looking for something better, but it's tough.
Thanks to everyone for being so supportive. You have no idea how much your comments mean to me. If I ever get really rich, everyone who has posted on this thread is getting an invite to a really boffo party.
-------------------- Five billion years from now the Sun will go nova and obliterate the Earth. Don't sweat the small stuff!
From: Boston | Registered: Aug 2003
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Lance, I am impressed by how you are expressing yourself. Even in these difficult circumstances, you are speaking (OK, typing) clearly, calmly, fairly, and with perspective. That is a strength*.
*Remember that in your employment search!
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Congrats on the job! I could live at Target.
-------------------- No regrets, Coyote.
From: Missouri | Registered: Oct 2003
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lancesrealm fans: Be sure to check out his groovy Yolanda and the Dragon story over in the Bits forum!
From: Liberty City | Registered: Jul 2003
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